Possible Fic of My Heart?

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"We won't need rescuing. I haven't met a cell yet I couldn't get out of." - Tosh, Countrycide

Waaay back at Dragon*con, I joined a bunch of awesome people (including pocky_slash and dremiel and second_batgirl and other people who may or may not have LJs, chime in if you want to mentioned) at the Saturday night Fanfiction panel. It was...not what we wanted, so we all snuck out and went to the Westin lobby and started our OWN fanfiction panel of awesome. There are probably tweets about it.

Basically, it was everything I've ever wanted in fandom life. We all just sat around and talked fanfiction for like two hours. BEST. NIGHT. EVER. I have lots more to say about it, hopefully later.

So at our Fanfiction Roundtable of Awesome, we legit discussed questions. pocky_slash started us off with "What is the fanfiction of your heart?" Basically, what is the big fanfic that you want someone ELSE to write so you can read it and love and cuddle it at night.

And at the time I couldn't think of an answer. BUT NOW I CAN. SORT OF.

Most of the big fanfic ideas I have are ones I really want to write myself. I only rarely put out an idea that I want someone else to fill instead of wanting to tackle it on my own, eventually.

But here's a fic I want to exist that I simply don't think I have the chops to write.

I want someone to write a fic about Tosh's emotional journey from after she's been kidnapped, blackmailed and then trapped in the UNIT cells through her "freedom" into Torchwood and specifically through Countrycide. Because I want Tosh to study Escapology. I want the story to have excerpts from the life of Harry Houdini, influences from Norman Bigelow, flavors from Michael Chabon's Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay. I want Tosh reading books, practicing on rope, handcuffs, straightjackets, watching Dorothy Deitrich shows. I want Tosh to practice at work and at home and I want no one noticing because this isn't a thing Tosh talks about, this is trying to fill the terrifying gap of Never Again. I want a flavor of magic in the story, because there's something magical about escape. And Tosh wants that confidence that she has in Coutrycide, even if it's fake. I want to read this story and feel like I learned something, because it's the story of Tosh learning.

I don't think I'm good enough at research to do this story justice. Also, I'm pretty sure my fairly straightforward writing style would be wrong for this story. But I think I about sometimes when I play the "I wish" game, and I think it's more-or-less what pocky_slash was asking about.