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Ao3 is down, which is annoying and a little worrisome, but not a huge huge deal? I guess I grew up in the age where stuff like this....happened sometimes? I remember LJ had a separate hosting for a page that just confirmed if LJ was up or not so if LJ went down, that page wouldn't be affected. (I prefer that to the modern "just have a twitter account" method because twitter is a big 'ol mess right now, but I suppose that wasn't totally anticipated.) So I'm just used to this happening sometimes, and I know Ao3 is committed to getting back online so I'm not terribly worried. (I will once again note to myself to download all the fic I want to save forever because one day Ao3 won't get back up. Note to self! Take care of this!)

HOWEVER.

The thing that really got me today is that this? Is being reported? In the NEWS?

I? Hate this?

I recognize that faction becoming more mainstream means more people have access and knowledge of it and that's a good thing, it gives more people access and joy and that's a good thing. But I hate this so much. For a few, overlapping reasons.

I mean, I don't want to say I liked fanfiction more when it was more obscure because that's definitely cringe hipster, etc. But you know what? I DID! I liked it better when the consumers of fanfiction were like a club, a community maybe. Instead of how it's starting to feel now like a commodity. I find the line now is between people who read fanfiction and fan creators (writers, podficcers, etc.) and I dunno, I want to share fanfic with other people who want to talk about this stuff with me, with that community, not with people who treat it like...like a product for them to consume. Maybe the whole point of fandom to me was the messy weird creative culture of it and as the numbers seem to skew wildly, I just...don't enjoy it the same way anymore. I know people talk about how fandom culture was just as toxic in the old days, and yeah, sure, but it worked better for the weird trash wiring of my own brain better back then, I guess.

And FURTHERMORE, it's opening us up to stuff like this Archive of Our Own is down so if you were in the middle of a 100,000 word anime fanfic you can go touch grass or something equally unexciting. The judgement and condescension! I hate it! So much! It was always there, but I guess I didn't mind it when it was more underground because subcultures being misunderstood is whatever. But now the writer self identifies as someone who uses AO3 and we still get the judgement!

I bet Sarah Z. is goin to make a video ugh ugh save me now.
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Ahhhhhhh, today has been so good (fandom-wise).

My CC beta, even though they were JUST HOME FROM A TRIP, sat with my on zoom for hours and we talked about next steps. I have a Five Times fic I started posting in 2019 that has sat half-posted and unfinished for nearly three years, and we sat down and went over it and, like, it might actually get done??

The fifth part is hard, because it's trying to do so much heavy lifting, but I'm telling myself that it doesn't have to be perfect, it's okay to just be good enough. This is fanfiction! It's okay if it's not perfect! It's okay if it's bad, actually! (Although I would struggle to post anything I felt didn't pass at least as decent.)

Anyway, the plan is to finish it (it might take a few weeks, because of our schedules) and then go back and finish the posting.

I'll probably update the first two parts as well, as I'm making minor changes, but I think I'll just link back to the original versions on my DW or something.

But I'm excited! I have a bunch of short one-shot fics and I really do want to get them up and posted. What to do with all the longer fics I'm in the middle of is just....a question for later! I'm doing something now!

(I keep thinking like, maybe I should post on tumblr or discord or something, let people in this specific fandom know about these fics, and then I think, you know, maybe not. It hurts to not have people to talk to in the fandom, but being anxious in a toxic fandom is wooooorse. I hope the people looking for my fics find them, and I can cling to that for now.)

Continued thanks to Asp and Lanna, I sometimes go back to that post and re-read your comments when I need a bit more resolve to get this done. ♥
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Title: Listen, I Know Who You Are
Author: eldabe
Fandom: Harry Potter and the Cursed Child
Rating: G
Characters: Albus Potter, Scorpius Malfoy
Beta(s): [archiveofourown.org profile] ShoshanaIsabelle
Summary: Albus was afraid of what everyone at Hogwarts would think of him.

The Harry Potter universe can have all the trans representation. So there.

Note: Originally written in 2020

Al! We have to concentrate! )
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You know what?

I miss LJ.

I mean, I say that all the time, but there was an Arisia panel about "Storytelling Platforms*" (read: fanfiction platforms mostly) and ahhhhh I miss LJ.

My favorite part of being in fandom was just talking about it. Talking about fic, talking about meta, having these long rambly conversations with a handful of people...it's my favorite.

And I liked that on LJ things didn't get too big. Thirty people could have an AWESOME amount of threads and conversation and spin-off threads and ideas and fic. Tumblr is too big and it gets impersonal and crazy and there aren't conversation on tumblr, there are reblogs which is not remotely the same thing.

I haven't logged into my tumblr account in...a year now? I locked both of my twitter accounts back in 2019. Most of my fandom conversation is happening on whatsapp these days, which is great, but only two people want to talk my fandom with me and I feel incredibly guilty because whatsapp is a demand platform - I can't post and then rest to see if they want to talk to me. I have to actively approach them for conversation and it's a lot harder for them to turn me down if they aren't interested. And people are allowed to drift away from fandoms! But it's just...harder. And of course, it's impossible to meet new fan friends on whatsapp.

I still have discord, but I find discord a LOT HARDER to use. It's so fast-paced, and you miss stuff, and there's no easy way to link back to an earlier part of the conversation and there are no threaded conversations and I find it pretty impersonal and difficult. I haven't made any fandom friends online since...gosh. A long time.

Anyway, the panel was amazing, and I enjoyed every minute. But I ached with missing LJ. Honestly, the panel made me interested in checking out Wattpad for the first time, because they have some conversation tools and that just...so hard to find.

(I recognize as I say this that I'm on Dreamwith. And I ADORE Dreamwidth! It's just not where my fandom conversations are and it's fandom I'm looking for, I have to be honest.) (Although man, I love you guys here. I'm working on logging in more, and checking my flist more too ♥)

*Actual description of the panel below )
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Title: Going Home
Author: Eldabe/Eldarwannabe
Fandom: Harry Potter and the Cursed Child
Rating: G
Characters: Draco Malfoy, Scorpius Malfoy, Astoria Greengrass-Malfoy
Notes: The marble tile floors in the entry hall are completely borrowed from Ekaterin's modifications of Vorkosigan House in the Vorkosigan Saga by Lois McMaster Bujold. (Which is brilliant, you should read it.)
Summary: "There is nothing more that can be done here," Draco said firmly. "I am taking my wife home."


Read more... )
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Title: Four Times Harry Was Intrigued by Astoria Malfoy, and One Time He Was No Longer Interested
Author: Eldabe/Eldarwannabe
Fandom: Harry Potter and the Cursed Child
Rating: Teen (for mentions of death)
Characters: Harry Potter, Astoria Greengrass Malfoy, Draco Malfoy, Ginny Weasley, Daphne Greengrass, Ron Weasley, Hermione Granger
Pairing(s): Draco Malfoy/Astoria Greengrass Malfoy, Harry Potter/Ginny Weasley, Hermione Granger/Ron Weasley
Note: With thanks to [archiveofourown.org profile] shoshanaisabelle, without whom this fic would still not have an ending. This was posted for [community profile] astoriafest, a fandom fest I'm running on Dreamwidth and tumblr.
Summary: Harry, still a fairly new Auror, didn't know what to expect when he received his first summons to the Department of Mysteries. He certainly was not expecting to meet Draco Malfoy's wife.


Read more... )

Part 2.
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Title: How to Celebrate First Magic
Author: Eldabe/Eldarwannabe
Fandom: Harry Potter and the Cursed Child
Rating: G
Characters: Draco Malfoy, Scorpius Malfoy, Astoria Malfoy
Pairing(s): Draco/Astoria
Notes: With thanks to my beta [archiveofourown.org profile] shoshanaisabelle, who did a wonderful job giving me thoughtful critique. All remaining mistakes are my own.
Summary: "Can we read, Mummy?" Scorpius asked, holding up his battered illustrated children's edition of Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them hopefully.

Read more... )
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Title: Children's Games
Author: [personal profile] eldarwannabe
Fandom: Harry Potter
Rating: All Ages
Characters: Harry Potter, Andromeda Tonks, Draco Malfoy, Narcissa Malfoy, Teddy Lupin.
Notes: This is a post-Deathly Hallows fic with no spoilers for Cursed Child or any of the post-book JKR stuff. Also unbetaed, so have fun.
Summary: "Andromeda had given him a key a few weeks ago, but Harry still felt awkward coming to her house."


Harry apparated onto the sidewalk in front of Andromeda's house )
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That awkward moment when you were frantically speed-reading an amazing new chapter in a long-running WIP just before class and the professor walks in and begins as you are frankly in the middle of some interesting character exploration kink stuff and you really want class to end so you can figure out what happens next but mostly oh good lord why did you stop there?????????
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Title: Suspend
Author: [livejournal.com profile] eldarwannabe
Fandom: Torchwood
Characters: Ianto, Steven, Alice
Rating: General
Notes: This was inspired by [livejournal.com profile] nancybrown's story Rescues and written over a year ago. Chronologically it would take place after Rescues and before Ferals, but it doesn't quite fit in the universe as it's missing many of the details and plot points introduced in Ferals.

Nancy, this is for you.

Summary: Ianto is stuck in the hospital and despite being reunited with his mother, Steven won't leave.

Jack made them both memorize a code. )
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So, [livejournal.com profile] nancybrown is nearly done posting Ferals, her sequel (trequal?) to Strays and Rescues.

Quick! Go read it!

...

That's not good enough for you? Really?

Fine, here's a proper recommendation. [livejournal.com profile] nancybrown has created a fantastic universe in which Ianto and Steven appeared back alive when Amy Pond recreated the universe with her mind.

It's gritty and dark and just because Ianto and Steven are back doesn't mean that everything is magically fixed and perfect. Far from it. Ianto has to struggle to deal with a world that moved on, a protective Jack and a nicely plotty alien mystery.

Full disclosure, I helped beta it and adore this storyverse like pie. I am totally biased. But it's still fabulous, so again!

Go. Read.

(And comment! SHE TOTALLY DESERVES COMMENTS.)
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Title: I’ve Sewn A Patchwork Life
Author: [personal profile] eldabe
Fandoms: Torchwood, Doctor Who
Rating: Older Teen.
Betas: All of the thanks to [personal profile] sariagray and 51stcenturyfox who looked over this for me while I dithered on it. Any remaining issues are my own.
Characters: Toshiko, Ianto, Owen, Gwen, Jack, The Master
Warnings: Character death, torture, field surgery, gore.
Contains: Minimal understanding of human biology, drugs, and geography.
Summary: Jack is long gone and the world is falling apart. Trapped far from home, Torchwood pieces together a plan of action.

(Bonus Note: This was written well before the Avengers film came out, but I would like to thank Disney and Marvel Studios for ensuring that people will get the one reference that worried me.)

*

They never made it back home from the Himalayas. )
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Title: When Jack Remembers the Future
Author: [personal profile] eldarwannabe
Fandom: Torchwood
Wordcount: 100
Rating: G
Pairing(s): Jack/Ianto
Summary: Jack wasn't supposed to be stuck here, not now, not after the turn of the millennium.

Sometimes it hits Jack )
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Title: Only My Dreams Will Wander These Desolate Moors
Author: [profile] edarwannabe
Fandom: Torchwod
Rating: G
Beta: [personal profile] analineblue did a quick beta for me because she is wonderful! Any remaining mistakes are all me.
Characters: Toshiko, Toshiko's Mother
Prompt: Written for the Red is Our Color Challenge #27, using the theme of travel and lots of Beowulf quotes. And the word helpful.
Summary: Tosh spent her holidays with family, now she's coming home.

The sea-weary ones... )
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Title: Reckoning
Author: [personal profile] eldarwannabe
Fandom: Torchwood
Characters: Ianto, Other Person Who is a Spoiler
Summary: It was that warm feeling, right before a kiss.

There was someone else in the flat. )
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Title: Appointed Rounds
Fandom: Torchwood
Rating: G
Characters: Ianto, Annie
Beta: [personal profile] sariagray
Notes: Title taken from this guy. Also random present tense! I don't know.
Summary: Annie likes the Torchwood pizza run.

*

Hiya, Ianto )
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Title: From the 82nd Summer of Love
Fandom: Torchwood
Rating: G
Characters: Ianto, Owen
Prompt: Written for [profile] redisourcolor Challenge #26. I used this image, the words "broken," "shuffle," and "kaleidoscope" as well as the phrase "After enough time passed, they got used to it."
Summary: Turns out alien raves of the future will be entertainment for the rich, eccentric and historically inaccurate. And someone, somewhen, has misplaced an Acid House.
Note: I have no idea, guys. Really.

Thanks go to [personal profile] hab318princess for invaluable help with British word choice!

Ianto and Owen were walking cautiously down an idyllic path towards the large house )

2011

Feb. 22nd, 2012 18:21
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Well, it's been over a month+, but 2011 wasn't my best year, was it? So much for the Great Comeback.

On the other hand, in real fandom life, I've MET people!

The best people. [profile] fiwen1010 , [personal profile] ilizze, [personal profile] dremiel, [personal profile] pressdbtwnpages, [personal profile] analineblue and [personal profile] sariagray!

And that is AWESOME. Best part of the year. Endless talking. Sariagray and I ended up talking for HOURS past when we thought we would. HOURS. ENDLESS TALKING. Best thing ever.

I also met Gareth David-Lloyd twice and went to Dragon*Con.

But the online aspect of fandom is a social thing as much as anything. And I miss you guys, I miss my friends when I don't come online.

It's been as much of a timing thing as anything else. In perfect honesty, I'm in my final semester of uni, I have a thesis to write and a GPA to try and maintain. I need to find a job and I need to figure out if I really want to go to law school. (Or get my PhD. Or become a hermit with wi-fi. I'll grow my own food and raise chickens. I might be over-thinking this.)

But I'm giving myself some fandom time. A little bit. Gotta catch up on fic, at the very least. :) As I've been out for odd chunks of 2011, I'm going through way-old posts.

Although some of you guys might end up with MASSIVE comment-spam. I'd say sorry, but I'm not. :D

(I'm actually at the weird point now where I'm commenting and getting replies FASTER THAN I CAN DO TURN AROUND. AAAAAAHHHHH.)

P.S. I'm back in the States. The Japan program was a winter-session thing, very short. Probably should have mentioned that. It was tons of fun, I went to the TEZUKA MUSUEM and the International Manga Museum, and I didn't do the hundreds of other things I meant to do. Oh well!
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This is my post for all those people avoiding everything new in Torchwood who aren't going to be reading at least half of my posts this summer. Sorry! Read this instead! It's funny!

Title: Road Trip!
Author: [personal profile] eldarwannabe
Fandom: Torchwood
Rating: G for GRIN AND GIGGLE.
Characters: Gwen, Rhys, Ianto, Baby Cooper-Williams.
Summary: Gwen, Rhys, Ianto and the baby are on a Very Important Case. It happens to be in the United States.
Spoilers: I borrowed the name for Baby Williams from RTD. I'm not so good with names. Otherwise, NOTHING.

Note: This is my gift to [personal profile] pocky_slash as she's been having a hard summer and really deserves some proper hugs. Also, to all the fans who are avoiding the latest going-ons in the Torchwood world. I doubt you all will find this, and some of you might not even like it, but it's for you anyway. Crack and happiness, with all the best intentions. Full context can be found at the end.

***

When they finally got their own car, with good petrol mileage and manual transmission, Rhys claimed the right to drive first. )
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Title: Now and Then We Rebuild
Author: [personal profile] eldarwannabe
Beta: Roommate (surprise!) checked the grammar on this one.
Fandom: Torchwood
Rating: PG-13
Characters: Gwen Cooper, Rhiannon Davies
Summary: Five ways Gwen and Rhiannon encountered each other, after.

Notes: Number five was actually written forever ago, for [profile] dreamscapemusic's prompt over at [profile] tw_femficfest, which was, "After her brother's death, Rhiannon helps Gwen rebuild Torchwood." But it didn't quite fill the prompt, so I held off posting it for a while, and thought about it. Eventually I wrote number one, which actually does fill the prompt. But in the meantime I had come up with other ideas. So you guys get five things, not two. :)

Warning: Mostly for implied non-con retcon. These get darker and darker and then lighter. Be warned.

It was almost a month before Gwen could bring herself to go back )

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