have been unavoidably detained by the world

So I think I'm finally reaching the tipping point.

For all of my fandom life I have tried to keep fandom and real life separate. For lots of reasons. One of them is the law professor who looked me in the eye when I was just a college student and told me that "fanfiction is illegal." One of them is that when I started this fandom journey that was NORMAL; we weren't selling our data to big companies for the right to use websites regularly and everyone agreed it was safer to keep your real name hidden. Right now it's because I don't want to be the odd one out in my professional workplace, where it's ok to be into fantasy football (which is OBVIOUSLY not gambling lol) but only two people know I'm a Harry Potter fan and neither will ever be told how much. (I haven't even mentioned Torchwood.)

So basically, I prefer it this way. VASTLY PREFER IT THIS WAY.

Then I made the stupid, stupid mistake of getting into a theater fandom. It's a fandom where meeting people in person is THE NORM. So when I meet someone I want to stay in touch with, I have to freeze. What username do I use? My real ones (on facebook and twitter) where I try to avoid fandom unless absolutely necessary? My fandom ones (twitter, tumblr, instagram, dreamwidth, AO3, ff.net, livejournal...) where I Very Much Do Not Want it connected to my real name??? And this isn't even talking about chatting with actors on social media, which is something that is a huge part of the fandom right now (and is something I both crave and fear. WTF self)

So I feel like I need something in between and new. Something "nerdy" where I can associate with my real name. It would be another life subdivide, because again: No fanfiction connected to my real name. That's the hard line. And sure, I haven't posted fic in a while, but I have three Torchwood fics lined up to go, and I've been quietly writing Harry Potter and the Cursed Child fics since *cough* 2016. They just need a beta.

But do I want to do that? What platforms get the Liminal Username treatment? Am I sure I want this??? Maybe it's better to keep being a lurker in theater fandom, because do I want this to haunt me in the future????

Ahhhhh.

Once again, I reactivated my twitter account for Dragon*Con. I'll probably be updating sporadically and also using it to keep up with other people/events at con. (And watching Tom Hardy be adorable. Sometimes I think he really wants to be a RL badass, and then he hugs a puppy or something.)

My username on twitter is Eldarwannabe (because I am SO CREATIVE) and I have it set to text my phone, so that's the best way to get in touch with me until next week. (Email is the second-best option!)

If you're reading this and you're planning to come to Dragon*con, drop me a line! I'm always up for meeting new people. :D